Disciplining myself to sit with Z each day for one hour to do homework so we do the alphabet together and simple applied maths exercises. I have not yet disciplined myself to do it structurally on a daily basis, no exceptions no delay
I am confronted with bs inside its cool to see and observe myself and how I automatically act out parental design patterns.
It doesn’t comes ‘naturally’ to me to sit with her and to repeat the same over and over again. Fascinating to observe her, she starts yawning and withdrawing. The lay out for the structural way of storing information is already in place.
Interesting to observe myself within irritation, impatience, annoyance, and hastiness. I actually feel ‘helpless’ not adequate enough to teach her so anything that locks into”Not being able to do the task not being able to prepare a child for the world system to survive” I will push! To bring about change. To see how I exist and realign it accordingly as I have committed myself to do so.
I will also re-introduce working with the Desteni’s Vocabulary Purifier again . We have been working with it and that was quit cool, she got all the alphabet letters already when she was 4. Now she’s in school learning through the educational system and I see that she is now stores information a bit ‘differently’ now she suddenly needs to think – lol
Well…. I got sloppy with my daily discipline- so here is where I stand.
So I will re-introduce home teaching again on top of her school work and I will do so until I am satisfied with her reading/mathematical skills so that’s what I have set for myself establishing this point of consistently within doing so.
So first week wasn’t that cool I tend to give up , something I didn’t expect from myself b/c I can be quite persisting in pushing. I have observed this pattern before me not pushing it firmly enough, I ‘settle’ too ‘early’ and that was when z got potty trained I gave up to quickly, seems a simple point yet is shows how I am cycling in patterns.
So with L – the second time, second child I stuck to it and just before I wanted to give in it worked out just fine. Lol
So now we are all satisfied by pushing it just gently yet firmly !
So the point of pushing it just a bit more when working with the kids to just go a bit beyond their and my comfort zone is something to practically walk through. I am in unknown waters here never done this before and while doings so I come up with the most inventive plays to integrate the pushing of what needs to be taugt. Actually its quite a lot of fun to study the basics with her. I mean she’s 5years old and so willing and eager to learn she is quite satisfied being teached and getting to know the world around her.
She doesn’t want to grow old she said several times over the last weeks. – lol
Ok that’s about the daily discipline within educating her, getting the basics established.
Interestingly enough L is going so much faster I mean I establish it with Z ‘right’ then L is moving so much more effectively.
The little ones!!
they are doing quite fine! We are doing fine, I observe myself within being with them sure not yet as an absolute standing still points to look at walk with/through realignments to be done yet the initial frantic almost hysterical experience of self within it all has been dissolved. It consisted of many layers I would say. So yeah time to walk this specific point of parental system manifestation into awareness and full understanding and from there its re-alignment.
The structural living of this point hasn’t been yet here fully as the whole for me to see and understand in its totality.
I see that this is emerging within me to experience points here to bring it here as the real actual structure of it, intensifying the Pattern and the play out even re-walk it when this brings clarity on how to realign it. There are currently some point that are heading towards this intensity. So will see..
Another point I am busy with
Must script a clear layout/ foundation for what I am practically going to spend my time on. Then I will script it and walk the stance into completion.
Discipline and actual structure within the structure needs direction, especially b/c this point naturally isn’t within my structural design. lol Naturally I tend to ‘perform’ ‘good’ ‘peek’ under different conditions, so discipline must be established as an absolute standing
Its also the point of consistency, doing and repeating the same physical action that is required to bring the point into being. I know is the only way yet I must push the actual physical action every moment every day, every breathe.
So cool, clear
Eating Habits/Preference/Blood type Diet B
I have changed my diet/eating habits, so I ‘m only drinking low fat milk in my coffee it’s the only milk intake and that already has been a cool stabilizer physically. Took wheat out as well same effect and at the same time taking the sugar point on and started buying bread at the bio shop again. Real bread!
I actually dropped some time ago the whole point of eating healthy I used to be a freak about food, I had developed quite a food obsession and went into the polarity opposite as well eating very crappy and poor quality food and totally not being interested whether is was of any good for the body. Either side doesn’t makes sense. So now I am prepared to walk the correction and eat food that my body assist and support as a pillar of support, nothing more nothing less. So no more preference yet eating as an actual support point for the body, simple expressing gratefulness
Ok that’s it for now
Oh and on sleeping it goes up and down there are nights that I am only sleeping 4 hours – so I am ‘dead’ when waking in the morning yet I feel so much more stable during the day.