2011 Lethargy

Lethargy, the Latin meaning is ‘forgetful’ which is illustrating the construct which I participated within, allowing a moment of ‘forgetfulness’ that led to many moments which than led to a ‘stand still’ which isn’t included within I agreed on bringing into being. It seems that when I need to wait and thus be patience for points to fall through I tend to lean back a bit too much as in: “nothing can be done and I must wait for its unfolding”

It’s a bit like abandon ones activities/actions to replace it with a passive action, finding oneself in a waiting room. ‘Waiting’ for the stream, the flood of time, the current of the things to come, which are not here yet, standing in between two points.

Lacking energy as a reaction, a polarity play out of first having too much of it. Being all wind up by all the changes that are already ‘behind’ and now projecting the changes ‘ahead’ of me. The state of /feeling nothing seems to move yet. Allowing myself to go into stress and anxiety b/c of it and then the play out of passiveness. ‘Waiting too long for ones turn’ which than bends into allowing time to fuck with me.

I know that walking points through from beginning till the end is a physical action, it will only be manifested through substantial actions, until its done. I push self, until I live this realisation as me until the resistance is walked through.

The only point that is standing is me being able to direct myself within what I can do within the given moment. For now things are stable meaning there is clarity within the given situation. I can only give myself stability, and live the realization that I give to myself what I want to be in all given moments. So I push until movement as expression is here again.

Teach yourself to Give through Self Forgiveness:http://desteni.co.za/
Give All what you want and what all wants,-Money!
Equal money for All – http://equalmoney.org/

2011 Writing Oneself to Freedom!

Writing is an amazing tool to self, through writing one gives self the opportunity to pull all ‘hidden’ information about oneself which is inside to the surface, outside.

Writing has been and is the ultimate key to self!
Why do we Destonians emphasise on writing as much as we do?
It’s already within the very act of writing, to actually sit oneself down with pen and paper/laptop already implies that one is taking oneself -even if this only for a moment -into consideration! Expressing gratefulness for self through a real physical action, writing!

By writing oneself out on a daily basis, one is giving self the opportunity to open up to the secret/private less preferable part of oneself, to become self intimate, in writing one can slow oneself down.
One can re-enter moments/events in one’s live without being ‘distracted’ by multiple facets while participating within ones reality/world, where one is most of the time automatically responding towards. Without actually realising where, when, why, what and how this response: the ability to respond to ones reality came about.

When sitting down with oneself to write, one gives self a moment to re-access automated responses within events/moments. To allow self a closer look at self, by slowing the whole moment/event down. Placing oneself as the participant in the shoes of self within the memory/moment/event/experience again and see for oneself through pulling out feelings, emotions, thoughts, how one actually has been experiencing oneself within an event/moment. And furthermore who one is, within what one actually does! All revealed through writing!

It will bring the actual, factual, real ‘raw’ lived self/participant ‘on the table’, allowing oneself a Reality Check, a Getting Real, back to Reality experience. I would say all should give oneself such a magnificent gift so join us! Write yourself to freedom. Because:

We all use words, we all know that words can “break you or make you”. So taking this knowledge into account one could state that words are the building blocks of oneself and thus of this reality, when this is so one can change self through words for the betterment of all. If one actually studies how the buildings blocks of you as words have been engineering oneself and thus this world, one can start with changing the process of de-engineering oneself for the betterment of all.

It’s actually fascinating how we’ve never taken into account; despise the knowledge, that words hold tremendous power over us, actually having us all by the balls! This information hasn’t brought us to really question words as us. We’ve all made promises that we haven’t lived and all have experienced how our beloved ones made promises and didn’t lived the spoken words into being. This is what we experiencing when being a child, parents sooner or later demonstrate through example: saying a and living b. All children know this and we’ve all have been children, so we all are aware of it yet this awareness hasn’t been part of our educational years so we didn’t had the tools to act upon it, time to act upon what we know. Educate yourself Writing and words are keys to self.

What are words actually other than building blocks utilised by the inhibitors, creators, us – of reality! Thoughts and words spoken do not immediately manifest yet words are directing situations/people towards a certain outcome.
One needs to understand how we utilise words in this world our reality, which starts of with our current truth the words each one is living. What have we actually brought into being as words as us as our current stance?

We must become living words in the best interest of all, and fascinating enough this will be done through the very thing that actually veiled us all, words! All are in need of re-education and this start of with understanding what words are! A sequence of words is a sentence and a sentence in action is living words. At Desteni we actually want to establish a world/word that’s best for all – so all words must be aligned with what’s best for al and we will Word, the Living Word into being.

By writing oneself to freedom one pulls the words – which have been creating ones reality; this world – outside oneself. From here one can have an unclouded look if these words which now have become visible through placing a mirror in front of oneself through writing – is actually within the best interest of all! Writing on a consistent basis gifts oneself with seeing ones stance! A camera can record pictures about all and everything around itself yet can never record itself. By writing oneself out, one can see what one has been recording over the years, layer for layer. Writing gives one the actual gift to re-enter the past which is lived as the recordings as words, thoughts, emotions, memories, – and bring it here through writing.

Learn more about words and one’s past as recordings that can be faced and seen through writing. Desteni ‘I’ process, writing as self-expression aligned with what’s best for All!

2011 Introducing myself- my story Finding Desteni, the journey to Self


When I stumbled upon my first video at Desteni back in dec. 2007 I couldn’t have imagine that it would actually be the beginning of the end of ‘me’.

I walked the world matrix quite extensively meaning I did my education, got a professional career, got into relationship, got a child, quit my job to be a stay at home mom. The journey, which led me to this life and this version of me, is the actual process I am walking, to study and investigate my accepted and allowed reality within the Desteni ‘I’ process.

I’ve been raised as a Christian yet my parents were not strict in practising their religion. By the time I was ten or so I really saw that Nope the bible and its interpretation cannot in fact be so. From there the journey of finding ‘The Truth” of me began. The LOA has been an accepted part of my upbringing; my family were very much into self-help books and psychology. I sincerely believed that it was my actual plight to live the fullest potential of me and become the best of me within the context of what I accepted as “getting the best out of me” in this life. I was a seeker and collector of experiences I wanted to experience it all one of my mantra’s was: “I only live once so I must make the best out of it here and now” Little did I know then, that yes this is so yet what one will bring into creation all depends on ones starting-point-lol

Whether it was Yoga, mediation, psychic reading’s, drugs, alcohol, clubbing, travelling etc.. I wanted to experience it all and from a matrix perspective yes so to speak, I did it all. By the time I settled down to be a mom, I stumbled upon the living application of what’s best for all, – Destonians and Practivism.

Initially by reading and watching the material what was standing out for me were the words used and the clarity within the sentences, how the message was scripted. I never heard such clear structured yet living real langue before. Which was remarkable because we all use words, so to be able to use words in such a way that all seems ‘new’ creating a platform to look at this world/reality from a complete different perspective, was mind-blowing and a call for more!

The message of oneness and equality wasn’t hard to grasp – it resonated within me as the absolute truth, which wasn’t debatable.

I was actually seeking for the truth/life we all do other wise we would be content with our current truth which is our life, each individual life is each individual truth. So when one is seeking one is living the confirmation that one’s life is a lie, common sense.

I immediately started waking with, initially through writing because in writing one gives self the opportunity to pull all hidden information about oneself which is inside to the surface, outside. Writing is an amazing tool to self.

It wasn’t an ‘easy’ or ‘funny’ or a tralalala experience I must say it took me a while to stabilise within integrating the tools of Self-Forgiveness, Self-Honesty, 4 count Breathing, Self-Corrective Application into my day-to-day living. Through being consistent in writing and applying the tools on a day-to-day basis I created a platform from where I could walk. This obvious takes time, we’ve been creating ourselves meticulously into specificity and detailed as our accepted expression over a period of time, so walking backwards in space-time in order to walk into corrective application to bring about what’s best for all, will take time and consistent self-willed application.

The forums and the blogs by fellow Destonians have been of invaluable support, I haven’t encountered such a place before where people in self-Honesty are sharing themselves, which takes a lot of courage, discipline and will power, I know from my own experiences what it takes to walk with. My visits to the farm with and without the children have given me a glimpse of what it means/will be like to manifest Heaven on Earth. while being at the Desteni Farm one can experience for a moment to live one and equal to truly support and assist each other as a group. To give All what one wants for themselves, security, safety, comfort which is currently only established and given through money, equal money will end the atrocity so we’ll create a platform from where we will value life as it should have been from the very start.

Initially I wasn’t really walking this process for myself I ‘saw’ my children and the ones yet to come I just had to act on the information and knowledge presented to me.I had to at least give me- and thus my children-an equal opportunity to see for myself what I have become and who I am within what I do.By walking with, I got to a clear and substantial understanding that what I live one and equal as expression will be manifested and the living example for all and for my children, simple!

Being a parent opens up the window of Possibilities and Grace. While interacting with Children one is forced to practically walk instantly, immediately within the moment here – lol No room for introspection, just do it!

While participating with my children, falling and standing up again became a daily living practical action!

In fact the children and the factual relationship with them have been and still is a Real wake up call, a Reality check. Reality as physical substantial manifestation isn’t up to ideas, beliefs, conditions etc..it has completely different laws. Its Direct, Here, Immediately within every moment. It’s useless to be or want to be more than the physical it has been the downfall of man, so time to stand up and walk equality for all as the change we will bring about as the real parents of this world, lets get this done!

So give yourself a reality check and walk with,- if you have the couRage!

Thank you,
Jozien

Image Frida Kahlo:Wat I saw in the Water

2011 Self-Honesty vs Honesty

Taken from Wikipedia:
“While there are a great many moral systems, generally speaking, honesty is considered moral and dishonesty is considered immoral”

Lol yeah I would say that Honesty and being Honest locks into a morality system where one always tries to do the right thing. The ‘problem’/misunderstanding with doing the Right thing atm is that we do not live the right thing which is best for all into being so honesty in fact does not exist.

So Self-Honesty is seeing, understanding and walking into being what’s best for all as a living expression of oneself. In self honesty morality cannot exist; does not exist because one understands that Real Moral is serving whats best for all, no matter what!

Ok, thanks!

2011 Up-Date – Laws within this Reality

I have been extremely occupied with all kinds of practical consideration so basically all boils down to the money point again. Which is nothing new in it self, only the extend of how I came about as money and how thus this reality as money came about is still somewhat of a shocking experience which shows me ones again the vastness of ones/our mind control and how we’ve become money as an absolute. Money has replaced life in every possible way and we actually do not have a clue yet to which extend.

I’m currently walking a lot of legal procedures which are all bound to money, even marriage had become or should I say marriage before the law has become a business transaction. The papers one has to sign and thus is bound to because the written word is law in this reality.

I actually never took the effort to study into detail what I was signing up to when getting married. I actually never had given it a second thought even though I thought I was onto it –lol I know now that this wasn’t hardly the case, legal rules and requirements are constantly changing in this reality. Al depending on what is the most profitable way to bend the legal rules to gain more profit.

Ok so walking world matrix legal requirements which is a study in itself, its like collecting data and with this data you will make the best possible combination yet when you don’t have or aren’t able to work/play with all data necessary you will actually be or get fucked simply because you only see part of the whole. Within the legal ‘game’ one needs to have all in place and positioned so that all is placed within a set of rules. If you place something outside of these rules one can not walk the system it will simply not stand a change within it – so walking the system can only be done with utilising system rules which is something I always thought something that can be bent yet I realise that these rules can’t be change by perceiving that one is ‘bending’ some components of it. Only I can change who I am within it thanks to the Desteni ‘I’ process

Ok that’s it for now,thanks!

2011 BackChat – Divorce and Break Ups


Today I actually defined in one phrase why my marriage and all relationships I’ve been involved in came to an end and how that came about. Through allowing extensive backchat to exist as part of the secret mind as a normal accepted way within a relationship, to ‘give’ each other the right of having secrets within ones mind to withdraw into.

To give some examples if you are not familiar with the term backchat within relationships/marriage. Backchat is the soft speaking voices within that are quite loud in its demands of wanting to win and destroy. It can also be an experience of self where you can’t ‘find’ words for. To give some simple examples: smiling to someone while thinking “shut up” or “I really don’t have time for this”, saying “yes” but meaning “no”, judging your partner for his/her ways,lying,being polite because you don’t want to be rude and the list goes on and on all the things we keep secret to each other, we’re ashamed about, which makes us feel embarrassed and exposed of its existence within us.

I have found within me that when there is only one single refraction that is not openly shared one knows one thing which is absolutely certain because it’s a mathematical equation and the outcome is predictable, the relationship will fall it will not stand the test of time. All will be revealed sooner or later, best if you’re walking with a being to make that sooner than later.

I have learned through an experience = the hard way which takes time, it took me years to stand within it. Best not to go there and be straight and real from the start when walking with someone.

When answers to simple question becomes reasoning and fights for ones limitations without willing to change self one knows one thing, one is fucked- the relationship will not stand, it will fall.

Indicative of any potential of getting to a point of mutual agreement about how to ‘play’ and deal with back chat is definitely the ability to response to each others questions with a clear “Yes” and a clear “No” within this Trust can be developed, anything less than this is unacceptable.
I will make sure that I will never allow any backchat as directive principle within my reality/world again. What ever it takes! I will get it done everything on the table, exposed as the back chat diaries.

Fascinating is that apparently the more dependant one financially is bound to others the more backchat and secrets exist within such relationships. This also applies within the relationship between children and parents.
An equal money system is the solutions to such unnecessary dependencies which creates inequality and thus separation and the urge to win at all cost.

Will be continued…
Backchat as response to your ex doesn’t stop after a break up or a divorce.

2011 Equality as Life Style!


I start over again!
So the decision is made I’ll move out of the house and probably leave the city as well and thus its lifestyle that has been m’I’ne for such a long period of time and by this I’m saying farewell to something a ‘style’ of living that doesn’t serves me anymore.
The structural design within I’m living here in the city is part of or even more accurate is ‘me’ in the old ways. It opened up within me that I simply could let go of this so called Lifestyle I created and constructed here. I’m not this person anymore, that persona as this very construct has died. I have lived this constructed manifested life fully into completion. I actually walked the whole matrix of aDullt life into completion by:
Getting into a relationship/marriage- getting kids- buying a house, the ‘Works’.
Married with children living the ‘perfect’ city lifestyle everything in place everything I placed so carefully for us all after “I lived it all and did it all” fase and before I started walking this ‘I’ process of self-honesty.

It was kind of straining to keep all those persona’s within the structure in place and it’s a full-time job, a commitment for life and I’m done doing so. Actually already some time ago yet I’m still living within the structural design of something; which is of the past, it has become quite useless in fact.

It served its purpose yet it doesn’t hold that purpose anymore. It’s quite fascinating to see how I’ve been meticulously designing myself into and as this ‘persona’ living in the city. From ‘Sex in the City’ to married with children. It freaking takes dedication and effort to establish/ manifest it into being. Sometimes I’m still amazed in awe/respect of others manifestation of how they established their thingy into being not yet realizing in full awareness that I did (all do) the exact same thing. We bring exactly that into manifestation what we intended to do, each single meticulous detail of it.

So from here having a ‘fresh’ look at what we’re establishing within this process of walking into a world that will bring equality for all by establishing an equal money system is of the same meticulous precise detailed placement of oneself within the greater to have eventually an impact, preparing the way before us. If one look at what one is able to create by looking back at one’s life and how this ability to create can be a force of real change when the alignment is adjusted with serving all! We can actually do it and will do so!

Yet now I break up again starting all over again. This time it will be the first time from the starting point of de-engineering myself realigning myself with what is best for all. Its kind of surreal! Can one really do so? Yes one can!

Equality as Life Style all included is my new devise!